I've always wanted to say that, and now I realize it was a mistake. Let's try this again.
Hey. How are you guys? It's been awhile. Like, 6 months awhile. Sorry. Lots has happened. I'M GETTING MARRIED!! Y'all are probably like "and here we go..."
Guys, I promise I'm trying to not be that person. You know- the one that gets engaged and that's the ONLY thing they can talk about. I hate those people. But it's soooo hard to not be one of them. It's the happiest moment of your life thus far, and if it's not, you're doing something wrong. You get to plan the start of your life with the person that you love more than chocolate.
This is a big deal.
Matt is fantastic.
Truly he is.
He's my best friend, the most forgiving person I know, my light in the dark, my knight in shining armor, and all the other cliche things people in love say ;)
And in like less than 3 months I get to marry him and it's so exciting and it feels forever away but I'm having panic attacks about flowers because apparently those are important and so is cake but honestly I don't even like cake but they have pretty cool cake flavors so I'm kind of excited about this cake because it might just be chocolate raspberry and that's like two of my favorite things combined into a delicious flavor but it's cake and what the heck is Bavarian cream because it sounds delicious but it's cake and I don't like cake but this cake might change everything that I have ever previously known about cake but if it doesn't I guess that's ok and why on earth is batter and frosting this expensive and-
Sorry.
This post isn't about any of that. We can discuss cake at a different time.
This post is about you.
Yes, YOU.
Thank you for being here for me still.
My choice to marry Matt was not well received by quite a few people. I guess that's what happens when people expect you to end up with your ex-boyfriend still. I guess I really didn't have any room to be surprised by the huge number of friend I lost over my choice. It was kind of hard to come to terms with though. The couple weeks after I announced I was engaged were not easy for me. I received a myriad of texts and facebook messages and phone calls that were less than nice.
Before my Grandma died nearly two years ago she told us that we need to do what's right, even when it's not the popular thing to do. So that's what I did. Not everyone like what I decided. But why should that matter? I'm doing what makes me happy, and that is the important thing. I have my reasoning for choosing Matt, and if anyone has any questions as to why he was my choice, feel free to ask me.
But, back to YOU. Like I said... Thank you. From the bottom of my heart. I had honestly never felt so abandoned, and sometimes the mean things people said still come back to mind and hurt. But then I remember that I still have all of you. People that, for whatever reason, still care. Many people that still want what's best for me and love me unconditionally. Although this is the happiest time of my life so far, it has also been one of the darkest because of how badly I cope with negativity directed towards me. I love you all so much, and I can't thank you enough.
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