So if any of you read my last blog post (which I suggest you read, obviously), here's my update for you:
I went into Weber's Admissions office to talk to someone about how they no longer consider me a resident. They were rude and unhelpful and automatically assumed that I was mad and irrational. I went in there calm and composed, but after being treated like I was an idiot I decided something.
I want nothing to do with Weber State University.
My classes have been dropped. My transfer application to Utah State University has been completed. My transcripts have been sent.
I'm upset with the school for treating me so poorly when all I wanted was help.
BUT
I realized something else. Something that I should have always known.
Marilyn Monroe has a fantastic quote. well, many, but this is the one that I want to share with you today:
"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."
2012 was a rough year for me. Without a doubt the worst I've ever had. For a long time I couldn't afford to live, everything was paycheck to paycheck and that didn't even cover it. My dad was laid off after 15 loyal years with a company that treated him like crap. My sweet grandma, who meant the world to me, passed away, leaving a giant hole in my heart. I was lied to by people I trusted, had a rotten roommate, and was harassed into leaving a new well-paying job simply because my manager was a sexist pig. My cat died after being a part of our family for 16 years. And now the Weber State incident.
I felt more alone than I had in my entire life.
BUT
Looking back, I realize that in a year full of heart-ache and sorrow, I was blessed in more ways than I could have ever imagined.
My dad was able to take care of everything around the house for my mom while she spent the last few days by her mother's side. That could not have happened if he hadn't have been laid off. He managed to find a new job as well, fairly soon after. My grandma passing away will always leave an empty spot in my heart... but it brought my family closer together. I got a new job, and even though I only had it for a few months I was smart enough to save a lot of money, so when I was unemployed for 2 months I could still afford to make every payment I needed to. I got a new job just as the money was getting close to running out. I found a new, cheaper place to live with awesome new roommates. And now I'm done with a school that was no good for me.
So here's to 2013: the year when everything changes.
When everything gets better.
When everything gets harder.
But when everything is worth it, because it's where I'm supposed to be.
